i'm veering from my initial resolve.
remember how i was saying before that i've decided upon something with some certainty and that i'm just gonna go and do it? well.. umm.. just kidding.

the "something" that i've been thinking about is nursing. one thing that just really draws me in is that i have this huge desire to just help people and this seems to be the most basic, most rudimentary way i can do it. but then, i'm scared.. really scared of veering off the course that i've been aiming myself towards after all this time. also, although i like the idea of nursing, who's to say i'll like the real thing any more than what i'm doing already at redwood city?

so.. i guess it's a big "we'll see" for me again. hopefully i'll start volunteering at a local hospital soon. i've already called to express interest so i guess i'll just see where this all leads me.. no worries.

in other news, i got a traffic ticket for running a red light. yay me! and just in time for the holiday season. it's putting a pinch on my budget, because now every time i spend money i feel guilty since i know i'll eventually have to pay for that ticket. grrr... oh well. i actually tried to go to court today during my lunch break.. omigosh .. the line was AT LEAST 50 people long!! i asked the people at the front of the line how long they had been waiting.. and they had been waiting for THREE HOURS.. shoot, having to wait in line that long is enough punishment!

aiya... fun stuff going on. lovely, just lovely.