tired.
my.feet.hurt.. my.head.aches.. i'm.so.freaking tired.. welcome to the working world. have i ever mentioned just how little of a life i feel like i've had since i've started working? today i "did lunch" (haha.. sounds funny, even to me) with nessie. it was wonderful, it was great.. and it made me realize just how little socialization i've done out of work lately. sure, it pays the bills and makes me money.. and goodness knows that i need more of that. but really, i don't feel "satisfied" with what i'm doing, you know?

it's hard not being in school. i like having a set path of course requirements and having graduation as a goal. but what am i working towards now? retirement??? jeez, that is just too sad. i see a lot of that, working at the bank. older people coming in, asking whether their social security or interest payment's come in. i don't want to live like that.. i really don't. i want a job that will satisfy me emotionally, where i lose track of time doing something i love, and where i can be happy feeling that i made a difference and did something that i felt was important. i don't want to be another cog in the machine.. please don't let me become another cog in the machine...