david moved out on wednesday.
it's kinda weird with him not being at home anymore. i'm used to all the noise, and it's been quiet. it'll be even stranger once matthew leaves for college.. then it'll be just me and my parents.

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oy. which means i probably should start looking to make more money so i can pay for an apartment. don't get me wrong, i love my parents.. but just me and them? eek.. i dunno about that.

today's been a long, long day...
it started at 5:30 this morning-i pulled myself outta bed and got myself to court to pay a traffic fine. got there at 6:30 and i was the first in line. probably a good thing, since the line was really long by the time they started actually letting people in. so basically i waited in line for two hours to be $370 poorer and now hafta go to traffic school.. but at least i finished two chapters of the lord of the rings while i was waiting to get let in.

oh! if things go as i want them to, i think i can get a rear bumper cover.. right color, right model, right year.. for $90. i've already put it on reserve-it's in a salvage yard in hayward. the tough part is just finding a good time to go in and look at it before i actually purchase it since they're only open during normal business hours. but tracy already said that she or her brother can probably put it on for me.. so it's only a matter of getting the right part. i even had one of my bank customers look at it, and he said that a bumper cover would prolly do it.

hoping.. hoping...

omigoodness.
i just can't believe people sometimes! i was driving back from redwood city-stop and go traffic on 880, right? anyway.. this.. GRRR.. GUY rear ends my car and drives off! so here i am, stuck with a $1000 deductible and a big crack in my rear bumper.

okay.. now i know that what comes around goes around so it's gonna come back to him in one form or another. BUT.. why does it hafta be my car??? right now i'm just wishing that people out there could just be accountable for their actions.. just take responsibility and don't dodge it.

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anyway.. at least i have a noticable marker on my car so i won't lose it in the parking lot from now on.

check this out:
it's the view outside my window while i'm in redwood city.

got it!
during the division meeting this afternoon, i got the more hours! susan gave pat and me the ok so prospects look good. on the other hand, the city budget's kinda iffy right now so i don't know if they can make me full-time. i'm hoping, because after all those medical bills that i've been paying, i really would love to have benefits. also.. higher pay wouldn't hurt.. but that's another story.

oh.. and guess what i did today? i left the lights on my car on.. AGAIN. thankfully this time i didn't see anyone i worked with for the little time that i was stranded.. agh.. it'd be too embarrassing.. especially with this being the THIRD time around. i found a random stranger to jump start with yet again.. you know one nice thing about redwood city is that it's full of nice people who'll let me jump start with their cars... hey! but i AM learning. i didn't lock myself out of the car this time. thank god.

today was the last day for the semester for aiwa too. i'm gonna continue doing it into the next year too. i like working with the women-it's hard.. but it's good for me, because i'm just so shy by nature and this sorta thing pulls me out of my shell.

guess what?
i asked! and pat seems receptive. so.. i guess from here on out, we'll see what happens. but i'm hoping for the best.

keep your fingers crossed for me.

things that i'd like to learn which would be awesome:
1) skateboard. i've been meaning to learn for the longest time.. i even have a board. i just need a boarding buddy.

2) play the guitar.

3) drive stick. just for the heck of it. also if i'm ever called up to drive stick for an emergency, i'll be ready.

yesterday i went shopping.
i went to walgreens, safeway, and long's. i spent over four hours and guess what i bought? over 50 bucks worth of christmas presents and three cards that i don't yet have the occasion to use.

aish.. someone please keep me away from drugstores and supermarkets.

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lately, i've just been wanting to go on a drive.
it doesn't really matter where the destination is.. you know sometimes you just hafta enjoy the ride 'cause getting there's most of the fun anyway. but yeah.. i haven't been able to.. for lack of time and driving companions.

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eep.. i guess it's a sign that i'm getting old. *sigh*.. yeah, something like that.

i'm veering from my initial resolve.
remember how i was saying before that i've decided upon something with some certainty and that i'm just gonna go and do it? well.. umm.. just kidding.

the "something" that i've been thinking about is nursing. one thing that just really draws me in is that i have this huge desire to just help people and this seems to be the most basic, most rudimentary way i can do it. but then, i'm scared.. really scared of veering off the course that i've been aiming myself towards after all this time. also, although i like the idea of nursing, who's to say i'll like the real thing any more than what i'm doing already at redwood city?

so.. i guess it's a big "we'll see" for me again. hopefully i'll start volunteering at a local hospital soon. i've already called to express interest so i guess i'll just see where this all leads me.. no worries.

in other news, i got a traffic ticket for running a red light. yay me! and just in time for the holiday season. it's putting a pinch on my budget, because now every time i spend money i feel guilty since i know i'll eventually have to pay for that ticket. grrr... oh well. i actually tried to go to court today during my lunch break.. omigosh .. the line was AT LEAST 50 people long!! i asked the people at the front of the line how long they had been waiting.. and they had been waiting for THREE HOURS.. shoot, having to wait in line that long is enough punishment!

aiya... fun stuff going on. lovely, just lovely.

i have found my achilles heel.
and it's furry and cute. as i found out last night, i'm severely allergic to BUNNIES. nessie adopted a bunny on sunday, so i went over to her place to visit-soon after, i started getting sniffly and my eyes started itching so i decided it was time to stay away from the bunny. then, my eyes started puffing up and my lips started to swell.. not a pretty sight.

nessie and her dad ended up driving me home, since they didn't think i was okay to drive back. when i got home, the first thing matthew said was, "wow amy, that's interesting. let me see." i was hoping that the puffiness would go away after a good night's sleep-and thankfully my lips aren't swollen anymore. but my eyes are still puffy and i look like i've been crying all night.

ugh. i don't care how cute they are, from now on i'm steering clear of bunnies.

hey jo, remember these? =D

i realize something about myself.
i have this really, really big tendancy to do things in a very half-assed manner. i'm horrible at being decisive-simply cannot do it. but i think if i want to be happy.. really happy.. i need to start making some decisions once and for all. making half-assed decisions only makes me second guess things all of the time.

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i do a lot of that-second guessing.

i don't know what i should do with myself and i have a decision to make. there's no way i can be guaranteed happiness but then, i have this feeling that if i don't at least try for it, i'll always wonder what would've happened. and you know it's those "what if's" that always kill me.

hum. i think things may be moving quickly soon.
i was talking to joanna and nessie about career choices last night and i feel pretty certain this time about what direction i should be headed. i'm a little scared-my interests seem to change a lot and i don't want this one to just be the new flavor of the week. also, this seems to be a complete u-turn from the direction that i've been headed for the past five years or so. but i've been thinking about it for the past month, and the more i think about it, the more viable it becomes.

but i'm probably going back to school soon. i want to finish up my education and finish it up quick, i've already wasted a lot of time...

i don't want to write what i'm thinking about for now-it'd be kind of embarassing for me to say that i'm certain and then not have it come to pass, right?

i'll write more when things are more certain.. i promise.

aiya.. wuss.
remember how i said that i was thinking of asking pat for more hours?

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it hasn't happened yet. last week, pat was out sick the entire time, so i missed my opportunity. this week i don't know.. i just couldn't find the perfect moment. i.. i really want to ask, but i'm such a wuss when it comes to things like this... pat says that she has another project lined up for me, apparently there's some litigation going on and she needs help sorting through and copying documents.. she says that she might need to bring in some extra help, but maybe if i just told her that i want more hours?? i should, i know i should.. i will, i really will this time.

today was a scary teaching day.
sung had a teacher training session at the same time as the class.. so it was me.. JUST ME.. teaching the class. it was very intimidating and scary. i was really anxious when i got the email from julie telling me that i'd be teaching the class alone.

but you know what? it was fine. and all the worry turned out to be for nothing. yes, it was a little difficult to teach the class without a korean translator, but i think it ended up okay.

no worries for next time.

today, marines all over the world are celebrating my birthday.
umm.. just kidding.

they're actually celebrating the founding of the marines corps on november 10, 1775. but hey, they could be celebrating my birthday too...